Saturday, November 29, 2008

ThE ReTuRN to InnOcEnCE

Yes of course.... after the most kiddish blog - hello i was an amateur.. not that i am not now.. but still it was a good start.... but i think its been almost 3 months since i made that entry... and looking back or rather looking at who i am now..what i have turned into .. surely time and life are the greatest tutors ever existent.... was i so very innocent when i landed here??? was i so so ignorant in my life back home?? oh my gosh - wat would have come upon me if i just held on to that life ~ disaster.... my entire living would have become totally pointless and infact useless. 


Wow !! I have never before loved myself and thanked myself for the decisions i have made ( cause i know how well i suck at it!!) but for this one good good far more than good decision of taking up a master's. Be it for studyin or not - i love myself for the most daring decision. 


And guess wat - i am getting to learn so much day in and day out that i would have missed out on all of these if not for UF!! 


Ok let me make this clear .. why do people always get the negative connotation when i say "i learned a lot - and not just academically" .. blv me i had a couple of "omg wat went wrong!!!" comments when i had this as my status message.. come on guys.. has the world turned so pessimistic about even little things??? 


Guess what - the first thing i realised when i got here??? - i am a born cook!!! man i rock .. any of my friends reading this blog is welcome home for the most delicious meal!!! :) But the irony is i opted for a master's fearing wedlock - and the main reason i feared was i din wanna cook for some stupid fella all my life!!!!!! crazy aint it??? 


Hmmm.... but somehow i feel that innocence which i possessed back home - was more than fun.. i had people to care for and people who cared for me (  at least thats wat i bvd was true since i was pathetically ignorant ).. it was a very shallow living... never cared to think deep into anything around me. It is said that to understand the depth of any situtation all u gotta do is step out of it - easy na?? but thats most difficult - now i am far from my home.. and learnt it a very hard way to see things from the outer... just walk out of one's own life and look at it .. trust me - mine sucked big time... gosh how could i have been so blind.. there are so many things i could have done had i not wasted time in unnecessary things.... since my childhood .. now that i wanna relive my life.. my entire life... go back to 1985 and set all things that arent right... get the best out of the one life god has bestowed upon me.. who knows... I mite never happen on this earth again.. and already 23 yrs have gone by...


I wanna do something which my heart wants to do the most.. and start a career in such an obssessive field... but the bad thing is i love cooking and art.. and i realised that only too late... am already pursuing a career far beyond my ability... should have given it a thot back home.. !!! But no harm... the best time was 5 years back... but the second best time is now!!!! I can always have two professions :) 


Hey the best thing about this country am in is the freedom .. freedom of thought .. which i strongly blv lacked majorly in my undergrad.... what if such a freedom was available since we were kids??? wow wouldn my country be having the best einsteins and gates' ???? A country with people who can tink induvidually.. who can create and innovate and not buy foreign stuff... who dont look upon another nation as tho they are gods... not jsut keep bragging about a glorious history and start working in the present??? wow!!! thats wat India is to me... it must be a nation of people with great intelligence and initiative.  Blind patriotism in the name of road protests and cheap politics and indifferent citizens - root cause - education. By education we mean learning.. but real education is in the doing... dont we learn more out of practice than from exams?? We have the cream of people in our country... as kids..as teens... and their entire thots are wasted on mugging textbooks and writing exams based on a 100 page textbook. Any question with a conjunction changed is also considered out of syllabus - guys wat on earth is syllabus when it comes to learning??? its a never ending limitless process.. i dont ask people to know everything.. but give them the freedom to do some out of the box thinking.. let exams test ur ability to think and understand.... and not ur ability to memorize... students must be able to bring about a clarity of thot!!!!!! not confused concepts from local author texts!!!! - trust me this kinda education is worse than illiteracy.. it makes us slaves to people who can think new ideas!!! Why else you think our entire nation has just a handful of business tycoons, millions of employees and not the other way round???? 


Am not the usual NRI who brags all good things about where i am and detests my own nation.. I love my motherland and want only the best to happen to her.. am also one of the few who wants to bring about a change and not just sit behind and blame others!!!! Am just blogging now.. who knows this mite even be the first step to the change i count on bringing about. 


I can go on... cause all i learnt.. about education, books, music, countries, people, My people (and thats wat i value the most cos this is directly related to my everyday life) ,.. is all invaluable... and cannot be put in just one blog.... and am sure its time to start studyin - after all am here to do that aint i?? so cya guys!! meet ya in my next blog!!











11 comments:

  1. very nice viswa...was quite inspiring must say, and the fact that u matured in a matter of months, well i guess ppl will understand after readin ur blog that life is nt so easy here, as we assumed 6 months back,,...

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  2. dude.. tahts the whole point.. life here aint difficult.. its amazin... can u imagine learnin so much if we were hesitant of living outside our comfort zone???? i love it here dude!!! its not at all difficult... its interesting.. everyday has somethin to look forward to!!! something new coming up every now and then!!! its not easy..but not a difficulty tho!!!

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  3. Hey girl really loved reading ur blog...kind of have the same emotions about this place.

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  4. // But the irony is i opted for a master's fearing wedlock - and the main reason i feared was i din wanna cook for some stupid fella all my life!!!!!! crazy aint it???  //

    Crazy? That's the most meaningful statement in the whole blog! :)

    // gosh how could i have been so blind.. there are so many things i could have done had i not wasted time in unnecessary things.... since my childhood .. now that i wanna relive my life.. my entire life... go back to 1985 and set all things that arent right... get the best out of the one life god has bestowed upon me. //

    And that's how one should live one's childhood. No one wants to be mature when they are 10. for one, I don't want to. Responsibility before 23 is a needless burden.

    The fact that you want consider certain things more seriously now than ever before, justifies the way you lived. No one understands life as much as someone who has lived his/her life shallow. So obviously you don't want to go back and change anything in your life, do you? :)

    // Any question with a conjunction changed is also considered out of syllabus. //

    wonderful. I don't think you can phrase it any better! :)


    // Am not the usual NRI who brags all good things about where i am and detests my own nation.. I love my motherland and want only the best to happen to her.. am also one of the few who wants to bring about a change and not just sit behind and blame others!!!! //

    good good!! best wishes for you to do all that you want to do!

    Btw, good entries. You write very well. carry on!

    Can you find out who this is? ;)

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  5. "was i so so ignorant in my life back home??" --- Romba over!!! 22222 much! :P

    "the main reason i feared was i din wanna cook for some stupid fella all my life!!!!!! " --- uh… the situation wud be the other way round! ;)


    "I wanna do something which my heart wants to do the most….." -- apdiyaaaaaa?? :D

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  6. visva, boss, you rock -- seriously!!

    i love, i heart your enthusiasm and optimism :D guess i'm too used to cynics and world-weary ppl, and this level of sheer exuberance is SUch a welcome change!!

    i agree with most of what you said. ever since i've got here, i've learnt so many new things about myself, big and small. it's great, it's exciting, and even heartbreak makes you a better person ... certainly one with more depth.

    love, and i really missed you at dinner yesterday! and woman, you must invite me over for food one of these days when the sem is over and it's less crazy.

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  7. dare accepted!!!!
    i am ready to eat ur cooking.....
    preferred dishes: paneer butter masala and gobi manchurian :)
    Nandri Hai :)

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  8. visvaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...........

    naasam po... i feared what might happen in case if i din make it thro... but now, i wish i was there right away...

    "The Return to INNOCENCE"
    -wow gethu.. i never knew ppl can get back their innocence in this way...

    in case if ur seriously inetrested in doin some good... go ahead.. naa unaku canvas panraen... not only me anyone who reads this blog will do it hands down!!!

    good goin gal... 3 months and already half done!!! another one year!!! phew who knows what can u do!!! ALL THE BEST!!!

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  9. Hey can you explain to me in good english what you are trying to say ? You like this place or not. ?

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  10. ya, the freedom of thought n action is the most imp thing , am lucky to hv it to some extent, in one form or another, since i was born and i can see the difference that it brought in mah life ...

    didnt get why the title is - ThE ReTuRN to InnOcEnCE

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