hey did u watch 'A Wednesday'?? its such a nice movie... thats the comment my friends gave me.. hmm interesting name... and finally i did watch ... probly if i had watched this movie as soon as my friends suggested it, it might not have had that much of an impact as NoW!! Yes... i watched it less than a week after the terrifying Mumbai attacks.
It was just another day at home.. busy preparing for my exams and working on the never ending assignments.. and suddenly i get a call from my friend (from NY) - "hey there has been a blast in many places in mumbai... also terrorists have opened fire on innocent commoners" - there came in a voice of mixed feelings - fear, anxiety, sympathy and a little humanity. To me.. just like millions of other Indians inside and outside the country - "oh my gawd!!! - not again!!! " All i could imagine was a market, a common building, a theater - fallen into ashes.. ambulance... people cryin for loved ones... debris and high-on-alert(but helpless) police with walkie-talkies.. 'why always the common man??? why always the markets where helpless middle-class mothers go for buying groceries for their beloved kids? why the theaters where a group of kids , ruffly my age, get together to have some fun? .. why a park where old people and children play their evenings out??? why?? why?? ' .. but there came the surprise.. it was not just the common people... it was the higher strata of commoners that were focussed on this time.. then came the question - "WHY??????????????????"
Its been almost a week... lives lost and lives rescued... am not here to blame the government for how inefficiently the situation was handled (on a personal note, our police, NSG, ATS and every Mumbaiker did an excellent job given the arms, facilities and freedom they are given in their work), or to find a reason wat the terrorists around the world are upto - am pretty sure they are also trying to find the asnwer to the same question.. i dont believe any man who has taken the path of antagonism has come forward to explain his stand to the common man- thats because they know they cannot!! All they do is either brainwash the weaker souls or instill nothing but bloodshed and rivalry since birth.. of late i have come to think that these so called humans who live such a cursed life are also grown like hybrid chkn in a poultry.. just that thier farms take human blood as its manure.
Now,i feel tagging them a terrorist, a radical, an assassin is inapropriate for a commoner like me.. i prefer referring them to as 'UnFOrtunates'. Its not that fortune has landed them in such a life.. but they are people who have made our days less fortunate.
Earlier i believed these UnFOrtunates brought about their rage on the commoners as they were deprived of their rights, had less money, were illiterate, loners, had some sorrowful life, society was unfair with them or at least fled from an unloving family life. However i gather that such mass destruction, precisely planned attacks, such a well-trained army of men, expensive ammunition, hi-fi equiptment, influence to bring support to all these activities is not possible by the earlier assumed UnFOrtunates.
And i still do not comprehend WHY??????? FYI i DO NOT want to also.
As a child, watching movies of national interest like 'Roja', 'Indian', 'RDB' i would feel a gush of fresh blood run all through my body, patriotism at its peak and would duel anyone who spoke ill of my motherland(yeah just like everyone else). But all these feelings would fade away once out of the theater(again like everybody else). It was only later i realised patriotism is also only a feel- just like happiness, love, pathos - all that we watch in movies and can hold on to our minds till those train of thoughts persist. In this age, anyone who talks of patriotism as his passion - is just like a teen madly in his new love... with age- it would also change into something of less regard.(except if u are a politician) :P
These days more than patriotism ..fear seems to take a parade.. just this morning a very sweet driver of my bus started singing songs for his passengers - but guess wat was running behind everyones mind?? - is he a psychopath .. is he gonna shoot us? is he gonna captivate our bus? are we gonna explode?? -all this just for 'if ur happy and u know clap ur hands' song. Even innocent strangers are suspected to be the most expected UnFOrtunates. Why even now i am scared to publish this blog - wat if some UnFOrtunate reads this gets angry and shoots my head off??? No.. its not funny.. not funny anymore!!!!
'Humanity' - i believe should be the catchword of this age. Its not because it is everywhere.. it is because it is not be be found anywhere (except in moral science classes ). Have we ever given a thought about the third person?? Angry? - show it on others.. Sad? - take a toll of others lives.. depressed? - buy a gun.. boozed? - hit and run ... bored? - go join an outcast gang and plant bombs all over the world... If u wanna clean the world... get into the dirt and work hard to get rid of it(the dirt.. not lives). HumaNiTy is also a Feel... NoT just a Feel if u start to Believe. If a small set of UnFOtunates could start a cult of battue, its not gonna take long for the entire 'yet so fortunate' people to start Believing. Believe in URself, believe in LiFe, believe in HappineSS, believe in ur fellowBeings, believe in Peace and a better WoRld lies ahead ( of course...after every attack they lose quite a number of UnFOtunate members - who knows.. in the EnD they might be left with none at all ).
Hmm anyways its just a blog. Am also one of the commoners who has all these qualms, worries and fears... am also the same helpless commoner.. but am happy at least i blogged my frustrations .. this is not intended to awaken the human in anyone.. its just that the voices within me could not be quitened.. at least let my blog shout the mournings of the voices deep down and as a person who believes a lot in humanity, love, care and most of all - faith in fellow human beings... i just call to my friends... please change ur attitude... this is my first call to u all..... !!!
