A Pasteurized Mind

One would wonder what this is all about ~ its just a note to myself on the most happening past few weeks of lyfe ~ the time period where peak of happiness and melancholy were sinusoidal, where all i want and all i never would want were equally distributed, where friends and strangers were just the same and mind finally ends up in a state now called 'blank'.

The precursors were pretty subtle and oddly instincts and intuitions went void. All that was expected was fun, laughter and a bleak silence within ;accomplice to these were many. Leave alone external entities ~ the self surprises given ~ tremendous ones !!

Depth of certain relationships, shallowness of certain attitudes, intensity of certain bondings, strength of certain thoughts, virility of certain beliefs ~ least of the most I can mention ~ and yeah the time given was less than the time moon takes to cycle the earth !!

Live the moment was the most valuable lesson learnt and invariably forced to implement to remain sane. Prioritize the priorities ~ an episode that served a blessing in disguise. Someone somewhere said 'lyfe' would be an adventure ~ never expected this roll-a-coasta adventure.

Ground zero ~ ripped off and scattered around is fragments of one, putting together pieces to make picture perfect or compositing into trash lies in the hands of the architect. And finally its time for some reality check !!

Little of this and little of that :)

Feel of a new melody
Waking up to friends chit chatting at the foot of your bed
Morning warm sun on a Sunday
4pm smell of coffee
Freshly painted room
BiCycle ride to a flower shop
5min sleep before waking up for the Day
Late night chai
A mild movie
Watching an afternoon movie on television
And falling asleep on the couch
Pointless laughter with friends
An unexpected text in wee hours of the night
Making a bad movie most memorable with deep meaningless discussions while watching
Reading Archies with a bar of chocolate

Please add your little joys too here and make it a point to never miss a chance to enjoy them :)

Next......

Shuffle is my favorite option on a music player... radio keeps me awake as long as i can... in monopoly I would any day go for 'chance' than just taking the normal route... yeah - I am open to surprises - be it pleasant or not !! Having the next ten years, say even ten days planned, is not an option even if the tenth day is going to be End of Days !!


"அடுத்த விநாடி ஒழித்து வைத்திருக்கும் அச்சிர்யங்கள் ஏராளம்"
Every new moment holds int it a surprise for you

Dreams take you where you want to be - but having many and the suspense of which one is going to come true makes the path just scintillating :) Never have I calculated the amount of cash in my purse, always expecting some non-existent cash to show up for a little treat :D Meeting new people everyday - and making friends without a second thought - has been my way of life for years now !! Life is a beauty and the Universe has unlimited joys to offer - every moment is a miracle and I would give anything to not know what it has in store for me !! Live the moment utmost - chuck the past - forget the future - and all u have is a little yourself in hand ~ how does it feel - I would say smile :)

gunjasa hai koi iktaara

Long over due watch - Wake Up Sid ~ Definitely was a Wake Up Vis & get to blogging !! :)

How I fit in the movie - journalism is one on my list of future dreams, & new gurl in new city - hello am all in there !! :D

Aisha Bannerji(Konkana Sen Sharma) for sure looks journalist and has this calm confidence about her and an 'i know what am doing' air about her. Her kurti's were typical of any media person you come across - be it Chennai, Delhi or Mumbai !! She definitely must try NDTV in case she runs out of movies someday.

And Ranbir Kapoor - has tried something related to acting as Sid.. cant really blame his cute face for being cast in movies. Man how tall is he and poor Aisha needs to crane her neck every time she hugs Sid :P

The movie was in good pace till Aisha strangely falls for Sid - which could possibly have never happened if they did not happen to share the same house. After Sid leaves, apparently they realize - typical Indian movie style - they are in love with each other. Would rather categorize it as getting used to living with each other than love! It was pretty obvious two people, good friends, living together, at some point of time would think they like each other... but going further matters more than just realizing the liking for each other !! I do not see any reason what draws Aisha to Sid and not the hot boss :) Likewise for Sid - y not the cute project mate ?

Could not accept them both just acknowledging their blunt love for each other as an ending - is it so necessary that Aish should only fall in love with Sid - whose gonna lose if we end the movie with a couple of couples here and tend to be less cliched?

Shankar-Ehsaan-Loy, no more comments can add to their music. Art direction - simple and classy !! Though the movie did seem little immature it was pretty thought provoking on how one can decorate their apartment. And yeah definitely a lively movie and good break from a nerve wrecking work day !!

kannil dhagam theerumo mitra.....

what is it that you most want in Life that you do not want to have it for fear of losing once you get it !! sometimes all you wanted would be right there - hard earned and never to have regretted - yet the very minute you have it in your life, just then you realize u wanna get out of it right away!!
except in memories, its always now and only now - but it takes a lifetime to realize that 'now' !! how many still love and live in the past ? either its a dream about the future or a heartbreak of the past! a glorious past or a fearful future. wat you see was wat was an infinitesimal portion of a second earlier. wat we see now is only wat was and never wat is !! then wat exactly is wat is ?? I AM WAT Is !!! wat goes on in your mind now is wat really wat is now.
universe weaves its own web for every being. is wat u wanted wat u are now ? but the mind works itself to believe its at its best any given moment and takes you where the universe has predestined you to be. so all you got to do is just BE !! just Being !!! but if am just Being and others on earth are also just Being, then ?
you are not given your entire life in your hands. u are just given your now. that is when, when you get wat you wanted, you realize the now you wanted all along, is no longer wat you want! its all a matter of moving forward into the next moment.
sometimes it feels like, your life is a standstill, and everything around just keeps going at its own fast pace. regardless of how you react to it, time just moves gracefully and all it expects from you is to BE !!!

Asal vs Vettaikaran

just a random note to give my blogging a kick start again....

of late i have been highly irritated by one thing - Tamil movies especially the latest ones.

With much happiness I went to watch a movie in India and ended up in 'theeratha vilayattu pillai'. That was the first time in life i ever wanted to meet a director or an actor to appreciate their film making. I wanted to honor them so much that they don feel the need to take another movie in all their life - awful, horrible, silly, immature, predictable, clichéd and what not. Could there be a worser depiction of a hero personality ?? Damn what did they even think of the audience. Did they think that all women were only looks and no brains.. archaic dialogs - for how many more years does the Tamil industry think portraying a guy who goes around giving advice to women as heroism ?? It was a very poor adaptation of Teulgu movie 'Chukalo Chandrudu'. The hero goes in for a ride with three women of which he finally chooses one and that too not out of love, but pity. Thanks to the movies that usually give the worst impression of love and relationship. It just adds more color to the already highly hypocrite Tamil society. I totally gave up hope expecting the female protagonists to show pea size intelligence when the male lead was himself a s***er on earth !! If ever the male lead was trying to act cool or smart, he better have done that wearing a board around his neck saying so !! Who on earth wears two hoodies in hot Chennai with one being pink and the other a darker version of mauve combination ?? Vishal was trying a very bad imitation of Vijay(who is in himself less than a moderate actor in recent times). I just hope the director or actor use a little of the god given brain to come up with decent movies which do not focus on jobless, aimless, senseless, brainless, good for nothing guys as center of action ( even tho we accept with noble heart their dirty and horrendous appearances combined with eye blinding dressing sense )

My second experiment over leisure time(which is pretty much the entire semester) was to figure out which was worst of the two worse movies - 'Vetaikaran' or 'Asal'. Both supposedly being from box office leads and hot female cast, yet again Vijay and Ajit did not fail to disappoint me in their regretful movie making !! Asal (aka Billa2) could have just re-released Billa and just morphed Sameer Reddy and Bhavana for Namitha and Nayanthara. Do you know how it feels like during exam preparation, you get to a lesson you already know or is same as another one you learnt, you would want to just skim through the pages and say am done - thats the exact feeling i got. I did not want to watch the movie but still felt little things here and there are different so must watch. Trust me it was such a pain. What is the matter with Ajit - does he think redoing the same kind of roles saves time in homework on acting ?? And in the end he ends up with Bhavana just for the sake of a happy ending while all through the first half he is supposedly romancing Sameera. Just being a strong person does not call for Sameera being ditched in the end while the only thing Bhavana shows is pure ignorance and dumbness !! Ultimately it was such a lame, hi-fi(supposedly) repetition of a previously OK movie.

However I should say Vetaikaran took me by surprise in being much watchable than Asal. Despite having all the drawbacks as Asal, it lacked the mundane boredom especially for one who watched Asal right before watching this one. Vijay escapes most movies by the little humor he tries to bring out. There there, I just mentioned it was a teeny tiny percent tolerable which doesn't call it a good movie in any case. I remember as a child watching the negative role guy, some two decades ago, performing another negative role, but his tone and intonation, modulation, dialog delivery, body language, why even his hairstyle has stayed intact for years now !! Does that mean I must be happy that Tamil movies are consistent or sad that there is shown very little improvement in recent years ??? Yet again the movie was predictable, requires no intelligence on the directors part to film, cause most scenes are just poor replicas of old movies probably by Vijay himself.

I obviously cannot blame the entire Tamil film making for these ill made movies, however they also represent a class of thinking and am terribly worried at the rate at which these movies are made. Also I still do not understand why any movie considered good must be related to so much pathos that in the end you would feel so guilty of any happiness you have in life. Except for a handful movies very few concentrate on focusing anything positive about the world or life. It is at these times I really feel we are really god gifted to have movie makers like mani ratnam or venkat prabhu or gautam menon (and very few more) down south !!